The Year of Humility Continues

Just turning the calendar page apparently does not mean that we have learned all we are supposed to learn. Last year was The Year of Humility - a lesson I needed to learn and was forced to face by leading a retreat on the topic. Apparently, I still need some lessons...

Yesterday I received my annual performance appraisal, and was blind-sided by the report that staff members find me to be negative. To say I was stunned and hurt is an understatement. My perception of me (and my wholehearted desire) is of being supportive, encouraging, and appreciative. I love to tell people how well they are doing, and encourage them to pursue what gives them joy. One of my mantras is "if that makes your job easier".

Another lesson in humility - another area I did not explore last year - is that how I see myself is not how others see me. And added to that is that what I think others want from me may not be accurate at all. My perceptions and filters are all clouded by ... selfishness? Pride? and unwillingness to change?

So thus begins a period of re-examining what I do for others and how, and how I can be a better servant leader. Of being quiet and listening more closely.

Any ideas? Have you experienced this?